| well its true |
[May. 21st, 2006|08:07 pm] |
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i just figured something wicked important out
i love the saying "for everything there is a season"
and it made me think about what i learned the other day in english
how spring is birth
summer is childhood
fall is old age and winter is death
i wonder at this point in my life were i am ?
i realize its spring and last year at this time i felt totally reborn and great
but this year its more sadness and the feeling that something good is right there and
i can't seem to see it or grab it
i can't wait for this school year to be over
i have so much life to live i just wish i understood it.
im done with this livejournal
i have been for a while
good bye <33 |
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| just a little drugged up |
[Apr. 21st, 2006|09:01 pm] |
ah vaction
april vaction was so good last year
it was the best time ever i swear
this ones been pretty dam good too.
lets see
thursday
i walked home from school to papa ginos
and had a free pizza with my girls
it was fun stuff
i went back to megs and we chilled with tayla then i went to church
then i came back with lauren
and got to enjoy the camp fire
im telling you were gonna have so much fun with that this summer
friday
woke up late hung around
went to heathers.
fun time
very fun time
detail later
saturday
i drove my mom here and there
and then went
to church that night
Sunday
Easter morning
was kinda wack because i donon
I have had a lot better easters
but atleast i got to see my family
and i played with my two little cousins which was fun
later i went out with justin meghan anita and mike
we almost died because we don't know what ONE WAY streets are
oh man good times
MOnday/tuesday
i watched the red sox and the boston marathon with my daddy
then slept over megs
we had a good time like always
and went to quinsg with erin the next day
slept over heathers house tuesday and got to chill
with ryan max lisa and michelle that was cool
got drunk and stuff
it was fun
wendsday
went out to eat with my meme
and she let me drive alot
it was a good time
got to chill with these kids again and that was fun
played some b-ball with meg and mike and then erin
good stuff
thursday
i got my mother effin wisdom teeth out
SO FUN!!!!
i was all crazy from the stuff they put me to sleep with
and i was throwing up and shit later
was not pretty
but i watched a good movie with leo decaprio (sp)
and today i just sat around with my CHIPMunk face and watched tv and stuff
its been ok my mommy has been taking care of me shes awesome
i get kinda bummed here and there that i can't go out but
whatever!!! i can deal with it and the vicks make me feel weird but better
lost ass entry im amazed if you read it all
leave me some love |
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| thats what i say |
[Apr. 12th, 2006|04:49 pm] |
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yea so i just got back from the libary
it was so fun
i love how i don't even know how to use like call numbers or whatever
dam i should have paided attention in 6th grade when they taught us that shit
so yea today was ok
i woke up at 2:00 last night cause i had a dream
that people were walking down this hill near my grandmas house
and when they got to the bottom it was hell
my cousin turned into a demon and her eyes went black
i pretty much shit my pants
so i put the light on and went back to sleep till 4:00 when i turned it off
so any ways i hate spanish class lately it really pisses me off
and i just wanna skip it every day but i can't so i go and suffer
i love when i have culinary arts for long period
its fun esepcially since me and nita are usually always together
and we just fuck around and eat and insult people
haha its fun
but yea i feel like this weeks been so busy and insane and its only wendesday
i worked at the flower shop monday and tuesday made $80 nigga
im happy
tommorow last day of school before vaction
WICKEd exciting
i hope vaction is fun fun fun
i wanan chill with alot people and PARTY!
it just really sucks that im getting my wisdom teeth taking out
ON 4 fucking 20 im pissed :(
but whatever
yea i gotta go and shower im a dirrty ass hippie right now |
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| dam |
[Mar. 26th, 2006|02:37 pm] |
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wow its been way to long since i last updated
life has been ok lately
just been trying to live it up
not to much has happened since my birthday
same old shit different day.
schools the same too shitty.
but whatever
this weekend was pretty fun.
friday i went to the movies and saw she's the man i really liked it.
then i came home and crashed
saturday i went to the mall with all these niggas
and bryan got kicked out then we did to because i laughed.
but it was whatever because at least i got to go to strawberries
and by the boston redsox bag that ive been wanting
and i love it
i went to my cousin rachels brithday party
that was fun.
then meg came over and we went for a nice little adventure while we
waiting for these kids anita and kaylee
to come over
anita finally came after 100 years and she was very tried
and kaylee finally came and she was very drunk
she passed out and me and meghan fuck with her some.
it was great and we took pictures HAHA
whoooo
yup me and meg were wired for a while
then we crashed and here i am
im wicked hungry latlely but like nothing seems good enough to eat
its so weird.
dam im gonna go nap <3 |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 21st, 2006|12:43 pm] |
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so this past week and now this weekend was not what i expected at all
i thought the week before vaction would go by slow and boring
instead it was slow boring and really shitty
i felt really shitty half the week
but what made it finally look up and took me by fucken surpirse was that my parents threw me a surprise 16th birthday party
it was really nice even though i felt like complete shit i did enjoy it and i was really happy to be with all the people i love <3
yea so any ways last night was fucken crazy
the mall whooooooa
me and meg almost did it
we almost got the gumball machine goal accomplished
but we pussied out
yea but it was wicked fun
and then we came home and fucken danced out to beastie boys and shit
it was crazy me meg and anita can fucken jam!!!
and did you know that erin is a great singer?
yea so today is good so far
i guess im goanna hang out megs for a while which is fine with me
ya know i love being woke up by her dog its really great
ah i love life sometimes |
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| everything is everything |
[Feb. 1st, 2006|09:20 pm] |
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| | restless | ] |
i need some excitement
some adventure
some drama & some crazy ness
this shits just not cutting it for me
no sir |
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| we'll wing it we'll sing it |
[Jan. 25th, 2006|08:12 pm] |
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| | gloomy | ] |
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| | panic at the disco | ] |
today was pretty wack!
i don't even have anything good to write about.
except that i was about to flip the fuck out on my spanish teacher
when i satyed after school today.
she was so badly pissing me off and probaly not on purpose.
i went to the libary
fun.
then i slept.
then i ate.
i hate math.
i also hate when i pull back the top layer of my nails off.
i still do it though.
i hate being all anxious and stressed out.
i can't even concentrate and like deal with shit and it makes little things
seem so much more fucking difficult then they really are
plus it sometimes makes me all pissy and i hate being like that
ERRRRRR |
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| blah blah blue |
[Jan. 17th, 2006|07:55 pm] |
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i hate spanish
i can't wait until i pass this fucken class this year and never have to take spanish ever again.
ew its disgusting.
today pretty much sucked. the only good things were lunch second period and after school.
me and meg stayed after and fucked around cause we have no life and enjoy causing trouble
after school hours as well as during.
i pretty much slept all after noon
and i was very lonely for a little while
i think thats why i slept.
i feel wicked stressed and anxious right now
i just wanna rip my fucken hair out and sleep until friday night.
im hopeing to get very crunk friday.
i just ate pizza and i bet it gives me the shits
ew. |
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| all i can do is just pour some tea for two |
[Jan. 14th, 2006|01:56 pm] |
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| | blind melon | ] |
so here i am once again.
last night was so fun.
i went to anitas and we decided to go on a small adventure
so we headed to vernon park
met some random kids anita bumed a ciggy off them
yea then the night began we just walked all over the place.
and then went back to her house ate pie then went to her aunts house
and played old school video games it was fun
then i came home and decided it was time to fix the big Blank wall behid my bed
soi painted it hehehe
i think it looks nice <3
my day started off nicely
i painted more and just kinda fucked around
it was nice
my daddy made me pancakes this morning they were yummy
this week was kinda long. it had its UPS and it deffiantly had its Downs
but im glad its over and that we have a three day weekend
im just kinda sad laurens going home
shes been keeping me company :(
but whatever all good things come to and end
i hope tonihgts fun these kids might come over should be fun
time for me to go eat before my parents strap down to a chair an force a tube down
my throat
<3333 |
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[Jan. 1st, 2006|03:19 pm] |
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happy new year!!!!!!
i hope this one is a good one
i've got my expectaion high as usual
last night was a good time
i like staying up late and when i mean late i actaully mean early
i just love my friends <3
im going to the movies tonight should be fun
then fuckin school ewww
but whatever the faster the days go the closer it is to my birthday!! the closer i am to 16
and the closer i am to fucken DRIVING!!!!!!
yes
ahhhhh a brand new year. |
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| shot down |
[Dec. 29th, 2005|12:45 pm] |
ahh so hear i am a nice foggy morning
christmas was pretty good
how bout ilove my little cousins so much they are the fucken best
i got a guitar. im pretty excited!
i can't wait to learn more about it.
last night was fun i went to megs and half slept over
i went home at like 2:30 maybe with my sister whoaaaa
lets just say the whole way home i was like
SLOWWW SLOWW!!!! lauren SLOWW!
it was very funny.
i snuggled with my mom this morning and yesterday after noon it was nice :)
this vaction is going by pretty fast im excited for new years!
it should be a good time and i just hope i can be with the people i wanna be with.
ahh i love this
im going to get coney island !!!
yes! |
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| if i had one wish |
[Dec. 20th, 2005|09:54 pm] |
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today was a weird day
yes it was
im pretty much finished with my shopping i needa get my mom something then im done
its weird i didn't buy any thing for any of my friends
i still think we should all do secrect santa again even if we don't exchange gifts till new years day!
because i donon we just should
i made cookies
they sucked ass.
i kinda suck ass
school kinda sucks ass
and your mom kinda sucks alot of ass
so yea my back hurts and needs to be cracked
someone help me please |
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| whats the worse that i could say? |
[Dec. 19th, 2005|09:40 pm] |
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| | awake | ] |
im in a pretty decent mood right now seeing as its 2o minutes till 10
and usually im tried around this time.
today was a weird ass day
i got high this morning before school which can be fun.
i had to wash friggin dishes in cooking which is first period
so im blasted outta my mind and washing friggin dishes
Oh man
so there's been a little bit of drama these days but i decided to solve some of it
i hope the rest solves its self
i kinda had a rebellious day today
skipped spanish cause i really just did not wanna go. we almost got caught a million
times then me meg and anita eventually just chilled behind a wall in the dungeon room.
gym was long period so me and anita talked to lyndesy for pretty much all of it
it was fun i found out some wicked weird and coincidental things that were funny and made me giggle
i stayed after school and did absolutely nothing with meg except try and balance on ice and throw big snow things in the area were people walk.
my sister is finally home HURRAy im happy yes i am
we just seem to get along so well i love IT!
i did this thing tonight for kids. i like put together presents for them and it was really
fun and i felt really good after words knowing i made some little kids chirstmas special.
well im kinda gettin tried now but im no were near ready for bed at this point
lalala |
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| pooped OUT |
[Dec. 14th, 2005|09:11 pm] |
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so i don't think i have ever laughed this hard and this much in my life.
well maybe i have.. but tonight i laughed my self to tears.
lately ive been in total lalala land with thoughts.
i've just been thinking about everything frienships,love,shcool,life,death..
its been NUTS!
this weekend end should be fun.
last weekend was fun.
i hate how stupid i am in math.
i try to understand and im just a Dumb ass.
i should try to be opptimissic but i can't
i get so frustrated!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
errr! heather's cousin is gonna get an ass whopping because he fuckin kicked me.
next time i see him WERE FIGHTING |
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| your moms a bitch |
[Dec. 11th, 2005|06:19 pm] |
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so i wishi could go sledding
no one seems to want to though. im kinda sad.
this weekend was fun.
i enjoy hanging with those niggas no matter whats going on.
i just really hope i can watch willy wonke tommorrow and i just really hope
this school week is fast.
chirstmas is real soon. kinda excited more and more.
p.s. dip set soncert= kinda of a drag but it was fun because at least we go to see these juelze (spelling?)& jim jones. and at least i got to chill with sam and jen and andrew and the regulars.
it was still fun
well harry pottters <33 |
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| what the fuck does quixotic mean??? |
[Dec. 8th, 2005|08:33 pm] |
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we've been through alot of shit.
who?
me and my butt cheeks.
and if you don't know now you know mother fucking nigga's. |
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| ay que pasado |
[Nov. 25th, 2005|03:53 pm] |
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| |  cranky | ] |
so its been a few days now and im getting more and more BOred
its seriously driving me completely NUTS!!!
im currently reading the fourth harry potter book
i read the third one now im reading this one then im gonna buy the fifth one
im a loser BUt a fucken cool one at that
i can't believe chirstmas is coming i don't wanna go shooping.
i don't wanan buy nor do i wanna recieve
i just wanna sit around all day in my boxers eat and sweat
i would say sweat like a pig BUT PIGS DON't sweat (right bryan and zach)
thanks giving was pretty dam good. i enjoyed it.
i FEEL LIKE I HAVE JACK SHIT TO DO AND LOOK FORWARD TO
and i certainly don't wanan look forward to school
because i hate school
im getting pretty fucken sick of this grounded FUCKEN shit! |
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| rain |
[Nov. 22nd, 2005|06:39 pm] |
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so after i got home from boston today i went right to the chair as my dad left and feel asleep until 5:30
then the madness happened
i dreamed the weirdest dream in my life!
and thats pretty dam crazy seeing as i dream weird all the time
(yes im gonna go ahead and tell you my whole dream in a nutshell though)
dream:
so at first i think we were at quincy market and i saw my mom through and open door
but then she started to fall and it took her like 5 minutes to fall so i ran over to her crying
and nervous and she was bleeding from her lip and nose and everywhere and i was like MOM MOM
then we miss the bus me and a bunch of people and so they all decide to come to my house
so they do and were sitting watching tv when my mom comes in then my dad and they are kinda mad
cause even in my dream im grounded and then all of a sudden my meme comes in the my anut my uncle
and pretty soon all of my mom's family is there so i decided to show my room to all these kids at my house
so i go upstairs and make sure it looks ok . then i tell anita to tell everyone to come up stairs
so bythe time they get there my room is suddenly a mess and two light bulds are out. so were all in my room
and i try to play a record and i can't find any of my favorites and i can't read any of the names they are all blurry so then one of the kids picks me up and puts me on my dresser
there are all these glass bowls everywhere and one drops and brakes
soon a bunch of the kids come stumbleing in my room. they are all drunk. they threw up all over
from the stairs to my bedroom. my moms mad so i was like im sorry im sorry ill clean it i just need a bucket. so i go down to quincy market to get one and i see tayla and i tell her whats wrong and shes like
so you needa bucket you need one you need one you need it you want it. she keep talking and its so annoying
i scream for her to shut up. then im trying to buy one in the store and the cashier guy is so creepy
so i start walking soon im on a bus and i then i get off and hug a few people good bye. then im walking
and meghan and her mom pullup shes like I FOUND YOUR LEATHER jacket she throws it at me andi thank her cause its raining and she drives away. in my head i wish that she had given me a ride but something wouldn't let her.
so im walking on a street and these men walk by me at first i don't really notice but every where i walk
they like follow and they are playing with yo yo's by the time i get to the end of the street they are putting the yo yo's in my face. but they can't leave the street so im happy
im walking up a hill and it starts to curve the rain falls harder and cars are coming at me
there is a truck in the middle of the road covered in wonder bread wrapping
all i wanna do is get the bucket.
i wake up.
weird ass dream i woke up so confused
eKKK!!
my sister is HOME! vaction has began to bad im grounded
oh well <333 |
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| who me im a soul surviver |
[Nov. 19th, 2005|12:49 pm] |
so i spent my friday night
sitting in my mothers bed rather stoned
watching the history channel and eating lunchables
whoo what a night
today i woke up feeling pretty good because i got to sleep in
i decided to help my dad rake the leaves cause he asked me to yesterday
so i did and i could tell i was in the way a little but i think he appreciated the help.
tonight im gonna help out at this church thing.. im really not looking forward to it. but
im not gonna even ask to be un grounded im gonna wait until vaction
im hopeing that works
my sister shall be gracing us with her presence again
:)
two day school week sounds good to me!
i doudt i will be skipping school for a while.
and if i do ill be actaully smart about it
i miss my friends even if its has been a day. haha
i love just chillen with them all even if were doing nothing and were completely straight.
i also miss it being summer. as i was raking i started thinking about how my yard was
like two months ago and it makes me sad to think winter is coming but in a way im kinda happy cause
then i can play in the snow and go sledding which is always fun but i donon i just love summer time.
ahhh raspberry snapple taste good
snapple fact: the most sensitive parts of the body are the mouth and fingertips
wow bet you didn't know that! |
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| can you spell? |
[Nov. 18th, 2005|09:10 pm] |
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| | annoyed | ] |
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| | whatever the f-u-c-k i want | ] |
lets get a little optimisc today
lets have some faith |
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